Medication – support, ambivalence and limitations

There was a time when medication was part of my journey.

After lengthy discussions with doctors and careful consideration, I decided to give it a try.

I was open.
Not euphoric.
But hopeful.

Perhaps it would relieve the strain on my system.
Perhaps it would bring peace.

My experience

It didn't work for me.

I felt dazed.
Subdued.
Not clearer – but further away from me.

The sleep was not restful.
More like being in a trance.

And the next morning I didn't feel any more stable,
but like a hangover.

Not sick.
But not really awake either.

That was not the form of support,
which I was looking for.

I know that medication helps many people.

And I think it's important to say that clearly.

What didn't work for me,
It can be life-changing for others.

Psychotropic drugs are not a sign of weakness.
They are a medical option.

But they have to fit.

And they have to feel right.

I have analyzed my experience together with medical guidance.

Discontinuation is not a quick fix.
Adapting takes time.

I have learned that no ideology is needed here.

Neither “medication is the solution”
nor “medications are wrong”.

Rather:
Individual decision.
Guided processes.
Honest feedback to the treating physician.

Not all support feels supportive.

And that's okay too.

It doesn't mean you've failed.
It simply means that something wasn't right.

I'm not broken,
because a medication didn't work for me.

And neither are you.
if one approach doesn't work for you.

Healing is not a one-size-fits-all model.